There's something heartbreaking in this, something that makes Alex wish he knew how to respond, that he knew how to move.
There's an answer in this. His own words thrown back. How you choose to move after. And you can only go forward. You can only keep going. You just decide how you move.
He didn't know if Neil would want to be touched, after hearing that. Alex didn't know if Neil would want changes, or nothing at all, and he realizes that his error was assuming that at all. He's not a fucking girl, trembling and waiting. If Neil wants to reject him, let him. But he's not going to change his ways to make things more unstable.
He was going to wait. He was going to ask permission. But instead he keeps his hand on Neil's chin, and dips down to kiss him.
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There's an answer in this. His own words thrown back. How you choose to move after. And you can only go forward. You can only keep going. You just decide how you move.
He didn't know if Neil would want to be touched, after hearing that. Alex didn't know if Neil would want changes, or nothing at all, and he realizes that his error was assuming that at all. He's not a fucking girl, trembling and waiting. If Neil wants to reject him, let him. But he's not going to change his ways to make things more unstable.
He was going to wait. He was going to ask permission. But instead he keeps his hand on Neil's chin, and dips down to kiss him.