His body had loosened in preparation of any hits, and when Neil only acts nervous in response, flushes a wonderful color in turn, Alex just--

Forgets. Maybe that's it. Maybe he just forgets his intentions. Just for a moment.

He kisses Neil's temple and holds him closer. Maybe somewhere else Alex would note the flush, tease Neil mercilessly for his reaction. But here, he just-- "You make me regret that I can't be inside you, Wanderer."