[ The holding, touching--the hand moving downward along Alex's spine--
He wonders if he's going crazy. Not in any facetious way, but in truth. Because none of this, any of it, are things he would ever dream of expecting from this source. Simple affection proves nearly an overwhelm, and when Neil pulling back, blinking, the sound that had been made is reverberating in Alex's ears.
He thinks to smile, to reassure. Understands in a moment that he has less control than needed for that.
He pulls the other hard enough to press, to show want and demonstrate need. Alex kisses his way to Neil's ear, murmuring into it.]
...Is this you, then? Not the hard-edged nonchalant guy, but this person? Do you want me, Neil?
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He wonders if he's going crazy. Not in any facetious way, but in truth. Because none of this, any of it, are things he would ever dream of expecting from this source. Simple affection proves nearly an overwhelm, and when Neil pulling back, blinking, the sound that had been made is reverberating in Alex's ears.
He thinks to smile, to reassure. Understands in a moment that he has less control than needed for that.
He pulls the other hard enough to press, to show want and demonstrate need. Alex kisses his way to Neil's ear, murmuring into it.]
...Is this you, then? Not the hard-edged nonchalant guy, but this person? Do you want me, Neil?