This is something new, experiencing sex from the other side. If Neil isn't so focused on Alex, he might have been rendered brainless from the man's reactions alone. As he is, he demonstrates moderate self-control, enough to continue elicit responses from his person. Not enough, however, to keep him from whimpering into Alex's mouth, from clutching the man as if letting go is not an option.

Neil doesn't realize he's shut his eyes, until they pry themselves open when Alex comes.

With near awe, he watches Alex. He makes notes of the differences between now and other moments in bed, and affected, Neil reaches to pet the soft hairs at the back of the man's head. Neil keeps his hold on the organ below, loosening only when Alex finishes.